I can't

I am having the hardest time concentrating on work. I have no desire to read and even less desire to pay attention in class. And, I feel fat. My own fault for eating like a tri-athelete. I have a huge tummy! Everything below the waist is getting wider. Crap. It wasn't small to begin with.

I went to a firm reception last night and it was pretty fun. I have to say that I was nervous and uncomfortable and 30% of that was because my clothes did not fit well. Boy, that really throws me off of my game. Dressing up is fun. I prefer not to wear a t-shirt and sneakers every day (it is new for me this sneaker thing -- in NYC it was always sandals or boots, nothing so mundane as sneakers unless I was working). But last night I was struggling to get my zipper zipped and my mouth was dry and I was hungry (I was that girl - -one of the last people there shoving sandwiches in my mouth, at least I was joined by many of the lawyers from the firm who had already put in their time).

SO reception went very well for me. I got to talk to the partner I wanted to talk to and it sounds like he really enjoys his job and does interesting work. I was joined in conversation by a Michigan 1L who was a bit annoying. Next time I will be less afraid to say dumb things cause she did and she recovered very well. At least I knew a bit about the firm and the partner (thanks to internet access during class) and didn't ask any question that could have been easily answered by reading the website. I forgot to ask the partner for his business card, but he offered it to me! (And not to annoying girl). Yeah for me.

Would have helped if I stopped licking my dry lips and was a bit more animated. Oh well, it was a good start. Hubby was a bit shocked that I fit into the suit (size 4) and is adamant that I go to a preg store and get some preggo slacks and some conservative shirts. Every buttondown shirt I have is pretty colorful or just plain old and none are appropriate to wear with my suit. Actually, I do have one GAP top from a Philip Lim (I think) colloboration that I have never worn that is a size too big (all that they had left) that should work perfectly.

This weekend will be intense - Saturday will be wedding dress shopping with some friends (I feel like an expert in this area!) and Sunday will be devoted to trying to win some scholarship money. And I want to finish this great book that I am reading and begin another.

I need to get to the gym, but I may have to settle for the yoga video that I bough BItterNY a year ago that is collecting dust. If I can't get into some sort of shape, there is no hope for having a natural birth.